ive become overwhelmed by my hatred for the way you are.
it has attacked my mind and consumed all of my thoughts.
you are so distant from me that i dont even know who you are.
you come around when its convienient, when you can fit me in your schedule.
i know your busy, i pretend like i understand but i dont.
why would you not want to see me?
why would you not want to talk to me every day?
i want to talk to you everyday...
what have i done to make you be so scarce?
im almost 18 now, youve told me to think for myself and never be a follower.
well im taking that advice and last person im going to follow is you.
i will never be like you, and treat the people i "love" the way you do.
i will be there. i will be there.
the man i chalked you up to be, the man i thought you to be all of this time.
you are not a man, you are a coward.
you hide from your own feelings.
i will never, ever be like you.
17 years old and im stronger than you.
i will never be like you.
i will be there.
resentment, anger, hatred, despair, sadness
have taken your place in my heart, and in my mind.
im done with you.
because youve long been done with me.
and i promise, i will never ever be like you.
i will be there.

Carved by the words that are not said, and those that are.



Running from the words, that should be said, that could be said.
hiding behind the truth, of what you feel, the thoughts in your head.


lock them up, throw away the key.
ill never let it show... how much you truely mean to me.


i push you away, keep you at a distance where the pain can never be felt.
you are so different, so special, never just another notch on my belt.


i see you and smile, but quickly look away.
funny to watch the silly games, that love makes us play.


you touch me, my heart skips a beat, my lungs collapse, i suffiocate.
not breathing, not thinking, this nervous feeling that i hate.
you are more than a girlfriend, you are my bestfriend, and with that comes no debate.

behind your eyes, lies your soul and all the love you embrace me with.
you lay it all on the table for me, your heart is now mine to be careful with.