this here is somn personal,
although its just the truth
its something u should know...
i think you are so beautiful
from your hair to your toes
on the out side and in,
the side that only i know.
and no, we do not have to rush,
drink your dinner wine slow
and when you read this don't blush.
but you have to promise that you'll never let me go
the pain a lonely heart cant handle
when its ridin the edge this close.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
a dream
baby girl is summertime fine,
dawn, early morning risen suns.
all i want is time,
but the light wont escape the horizons.
baby girl is falling in the fall,
now shes all mine.
i plan to give her my all,
a Fear - shell never find.
baby girl is winter time cold,
with a touch so soft.
i hope together we can go,
to the land of the lost.
baby girl is spring time blooming,
baby girl same my name.
the seasons are forever changing,
but my baby stays the same.
dawn, early morning risen suns.
all i want is time,
but the light wont escape the horizons.
baby girl is falling in the fall,
now shes all mine.
i plan to give her my all,
a Fear - shell never find.
baby girl is winter time cold,
with a touch so soft.
i hope together we can go,
to the land of the lost.
baby girl is spring time blooming,
baby girl same my name.
the seasons are forever changing,
but my baby stays the same.
Monday, November 29, 2010
fuck
uncommon
other than the rest
speaking more than mind
something hidden in the chest
but put it to the test.
the race to be the best,
or the racre to restore the quest?
lost behind bars
we go harder than the rest
and locked behind steel bars
i am now common like the mess
unstable emotion- explotions of
this
pinch of loud weed; away i give life
a kiss
truely behind the sun, darkness
falls
my addictions closing in, quadratic draw of
the walls
only to crush my skull
and leave the truth that remains
revealing the love in my heart
and the poet in my brain
the true test to be the best:
is to be on top of time living in
rhyme
idle time in wrong hands leads to
the common blind.
i must live in color and in time.
life live once, and this one shall be mine.
circular evading ends.
confrontation.
other than the rest
speaking more than mind
something hidden in the chest
but put it to the test.
the race to be the best,
or the racre to restore the quest?
lost behind bars
we go harder than the rest
and locked behind steel bars
i am now common like the mess
unstable emotion- explotions of
this
pinch of loud weed; away i give life
a kiss
truely behind the sun, darkness
falls
my addictions closing in, quadratic draw of
the walls
only to crush my skull
and leave the truth that remains
revealing the love in my heart
and the poet in my brain
the true test to be the best:
is to be on top of time living in
rhyme
idle time in wrong hands leads to
the common blind.
i must live in color and in time.
life live once, and this one shall be mine.
circular evading ends.
confrontation.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
dear agony
Dear Agony,
You have welcomed yourself into the depths of my being. You have moved in all of your extra baggage and have no plans of leaving, soon. Such a weight you are, heavy like a boulder, rolling my neck and pounding on my shoulders. With each day, you encompass my mind and tear apart my dreams, a trickle a time. With you on my back now, only circular evacuation will occur. I am running so fast but my destination equals nowhere. Ill spin my wheels as fast as they'll go, but you will still be there, like a shadow I cant escape. Agony, you have such a hold on me, lift your embrace and put me back in control. But your mad crusades only continue. Your weapons prove fatal; hate you I do.
A creature in the night, the true faceless enemy you remain. See you I shall never, but host you for what seems like eternity; I will. As you suck the life right out of me; I can only reach for all for the ways to ease my pain and struggle. Puff after puff, exhaling the numbness of necessity. I keep searching for an answer, in the daze it’s not important. Drag after drag, inhaling and failing, but this non-productivity exceeds me. Again circular evacuation. Because of you, I have lost who I am. In this struggle alone, with out even myself to keep company. A stoner lonely loner, high just reaching for the heavens. Remaining so misunderstood, but my pen is my weapon. But interaction remain to ray from. I run from relationships; such a wall has been built. Agony, you signed your signature on the bottom of the blueprint.
Why wont you let me sleep? Stop attacking my dreams, and playing tricks on me. I wake up reaching for her, because in my dream she was there. You make me wake alone; and as I wipe the sleep out of my eyes, I watch her disappear. Therefore, days full of haze keep me for days in a daze. I am in seek to merely non remember, that spot that she laid. I stay so high, I dodge jet planes on the regular: stratosphere weed. Rolled to perfection with consistency, in turn, burn the back-wood tree, just to let my mind free. But the black clouds of smoke that I exhale never prevail. You have beaten me to a pulp, I am now a withered man. Fighting an endless war, and I am no victor. I am slipping into darkness like sand sliding through your fingers. Inevitability perhaps, but I still blame you. Agony you bring the truth and the realities I cant change. But they remain the ones pounding the hardest on my heart, and even harder on my brain. Agony, indeed, you are the one to blame.
Leave me now! Please evade my presence. You are no longer, nor have you ever been wanted. A sinister poison that attacked my mind, tied my hands and just drug me along. You jumped like a monkey on my back, ridden me to no end, now go back to the zoo you belong. You have beaten me black and blue, been a terror for so long; what else are you here for? You have won this gladiator battle, I feel nothing anymore, and no more fight lies within. I am writing to say goodbye, to let it be known this will be the end. You came around, and made it hurt. My only freedom of you, is to disappear into the dirt.
with hate,
Evan Bridges
You have welcomed yourself into the depths of my being. You have moved in all of your extra baggage and have no plans of leaving, soon. Such a weight you are, heavy like a boulder, rolling my neck and pounding on my shoulders. With each day, you encompass my mind and tear apart my dreams, a trickle a time. With you on my back now, only circular evacuation will occur. I am running so fast but my destination equals nowhere. Ill spin my wheels as fast as they'll go, but you will still be there, like a shadow I cant escape. Agony, you have such a hold on me, lift your embrace and put me back in control. But your mad crusades only continue. Your weapons prove fatal; hate you I do.
A creature in the night, the true faceless enemy you remain. See you I shall never, but host you for what seems like eternity; I will. As you suck the life right out of me; I can only reach for all for the ways to ease my pain and struggle. Puff after puff, exhaling the numbness of necessity. I keep searching for an answer, in the daze it’s not important. Drag after drag, inhaling and failing, but this non-productivity exceeds me. Again circular evacuation. Because of you, I have lost who I am. In this struggle alone, with out even myself to keep company. A stoner lonely loner, high just reaching for the heavens. Remaining so misunderstood, but my pen is my weapon. But interaction remain to ray from. I run from relationships; such a wall has been built. Agony, you signed your signature on the bottom of the blueprint.
Why wont you let me sleep? Stop attacking my dreams, and playing tricks on me. I wake up reaching for her, because in my dream she was there. You make me wake alone; and as I wipe the sleep out of my eyes, I watch her disappear. Therefore, days full of haze keep me for days in a daze. I am in seek to merely non remember, that spot that she laid. I stay so high, I dodge jet planes on the regular: stratosphere weed. Rolled to perfection with consistency, in turn, burn the back-wood tree, just to let my mind free. But the black clouds of smoke that I exhale never prevail. You have beaten me to a pulp, I am now a withered man. Fighting an endless war, and I am no victor. I am slipping into darkness like sand sliding through your fingers. Inevitability perhaps, but I still blame you. Agony you bring the truth and the realities I cant change. But they remain the ones pounding the hardest on my heart, and even harder on my brain. Agony, indeed, you are the one to blame.
Leave me now! Please evade my presence. You are no longer, nor have you ever been wanted. A sinister poison that attacked my mind, tied my hands and just drug me along. You jumped like a monkey on my back, ridden me to no end, now go back to the zoo you belong. You have beaten me black and blue, been a terror for so long; what else are you here for? You have won this gladiator battle, I feel nothing anymore, and no more fight lies within. I am writing to say goodbye, to let it be known this will be the end. You came around, and made it hurt. My only freedom of you, is to disappear into the dirt.
with hate,
Evan Bridges
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
crushed
playgroud crush.
as a junior in high school i was different than the rest of the guys around me. when i was five my dad left, and lived with my mom and sister nearly all my life. i really feel like that gave me a bit of a deeper understanding of women. my mother is my best friend and we have been very close all my life. most times, a guy treats a girl like he treats his mother and i treat my mom like a queen. i was a lover boy to say the least. i had a girlfriend at all times, some times had a few at a time. but just as sure as the sun rises, there was one girl who made me crumble like a cookie.
she was so beautiful and no matter how cocky and smooth i could be, with her it was never the case. it was a struggle just for me to look her in the face, whether she was looking at me or not. intimidated i was, and for the first time in my life. she was tall and long, and curvy as well. a nice butt; which is where a lot of my attention goes. she spoke softly and very effectively. she never said to much, and her laugh was quite charming. i thought if only i could talk to her, i could make her mine.
we met on a hill on night. i drove to see her quite late and experienced nothing that was forethought. we sat and talked for a brief five minutes. i didn't touch her or even really look her in the eye. i was so nervous, i couldn't put any words together to woo this young lioness. with my tail tucked deep between my legs, she returned to her house at down the hill and i returned to my car and began my route home.
i gained her number though and through that, quite a bong grew. we text ed and talked on the phone, more than any other girl i have ever been in conversation with over any media. everyday we spoke and every night she talked me or i talked her all the way to sleep.
when it was time for my next visit i took her to the playground. here me and her were free. free to be whom ever we wished to be. we swung on the swings and slithered down every slide just acting silly in the bliss of the night. we soon met upon a platform of the play ground. all edges end near, but there was a ladder that was at waist level that held up another platform. she sat on the that, and i stood between her legs. i took her hand, and held it for quite awhile. i turned it all around, look at it in every angle. i touched every inch of it. her hands were beautiful. i believe you cant tell a lot by a girls hands. hers were so smooth and clean. no fake nails or glamor polish to ask for attention. they were plain and clear, and as simple as could be. i loved the softness of her skin, i laced my fingers through hers and held and squeezed then released. repeating this, the whole time im staring at her hand. i look up, at her and look into her eyes. she looks amazed, as if what i have done has made her feel. and that is is what i wanted more than all, just to make her feel; something, anything. at this point i was infatuated with her being. she cared about me and i cared about her. the feeling of being wanted kept me so warm through the nights.
one night she stopped by my house. she text me and told me she was out side and i hopped up off the couch. i walked out side and down the drive way to her car, opened the door and entered. i say there and looked at her already watery eyes. i knew this must not be good, she began with.. we need to talk. i told her straight up, either be with me or lets let it go. she had friends that didn't like me and parents that didn't agree as well. she was in a bind. i told her be with me or let it go, and sadly i got out of her car that night feeling more alone and unwanted than ever. my heart left a trail of blood, staining where it fell all the way back to my bed room.
crushed.
as a junior in high school i was different than the rest of the guys around me. when i was five my dad left, and lived with my mom and sister nearly all my life. i really feel like that gave me a bit of a deeper understanding of women. my mother is my best friend and we have been very close all my life. most times, a guy treats a girl like he treats his mother and i treat my mom like a queen. i was a lover boy to say the least. i had a girlfriend at all times, some times had a few at a time. but just as sure as the sun rises, there was one girl who made me crumble like a cookie.
she was so beautiful and no matter how cocky and smooth i could be, with her it was never the case. it was a struggle just for me to look her in the face, whether she was looking at me or not. intimidated i was, and for the first time in my life. she was tall and long, and curvy as well. a nice butt; which is where a lot of my attention goes. she spoke softly and very effectively. she never said to much, and her laugh was quite charming. i thought if only i could talk to her, i could make her mine.
we met on a hill on night. i drove to see her quite late and experienced nothing that was forethought. we sat and talked for a brief five minutes. i didn't touch her or even really look her in the eye. i was so nervous, i couldn't put any words together to woo this young lioness. with my tail tucked deep between my legs, she returned to her house at down the hill and i returned to my car and began my route home.
i gained her number though and through that, quite a bong grew. we text ed and talked on the phone, more than any other girl i have ever been in conversation with over any media. everyday we spoke and every night she talked me or i talked her all the way to sleep.
when it was time for my next visit i took her to the playground. here me and her were free. free to be whom ever we wished to be. we swung on the swings and slithered down every slide just acting silly in the bliss of the night. we soon met upon a platform of the play ground. all edges end near, but there was a ladder that was at waist level that held up another platform. she sat on the that, and i stood between her legs. i took her hand, and held it for quite awhile. i turned it all around, look at it in every angle. i touched every inch of it. her hands were beautiful. i believe you cant tell a lot by a girls hands. hers were so smooth and clean. no fake nails or glamor polish to ask for attention. they were plain and clear, and as simple as could be. i loved the softness of her skin, i laced my fingers through hers and held and squeezed then released. repeating this, the whole time im staring at her hand. i look up, at her and look into her eyes. she looks amazed, as if what i have done has made her feel. and that is is what i wanted more than all, just to make her feel; something, anything. at this point i was infatuated with her being. she cared about me and i cared about her. the feeling of being wanted kept me so warm through the nights.
one night she stopped by my house. she text me and told me she was out side and i hopped up off the couch. i walked out side and down the drive way to her car, opened the door and entered. i say there and looked at her already watery eyes. i knew this must not be good, she began with.. we need to talk. i told her straight up, either be with me or lets let it go. she had friends that didn't like me and parents that didn't agree as well. she was in a bind. i told her be with me or let it go, and sadly i got out of her car that night feeling more alone and unwanted than ever. my heart left a trail of blood, staining where it fell all the way back to my bed room.
crushed.
sexx
sex.
The sex, begins with the eyes. Her dark brows, curved in sweet perfection. though seemingly brown, when hit with the light her eyes prove to be the most beautiful green.
she looks at me, in her eyes i can see she isn't scared. shes ready for a man to be a man, to have his way with his lady. as i take a step closer, her eyes change to a wanting, screaming desire to be encompassed by my love, and no other love. another step, her eyes are glued to mine. to look away is fatal, the moment is on.
now for the first touch. i take my hands and grab her body just above her waist. love her curves with my hands and comfort her body. she touches my face, an occurrence i would usually immediately halt. but the touch was so gentle, so warm and smooth. i was infatuated with the feeling, i could never stop her. with that act, she gained the keys to the kingdom. she will forever be in my memory after this.
the kiss. i move in like a smooth cougar on his prey. slow creeping inside her space, to gain what i want. i move into her face, and pause. look at her eyes one more time, only to see them open. our lips meet, and both of our eyes remain open. in her eyes remained the want and the burning desire. after our lips met once, they met immediately again only to not part. we walked back a couple steps to the bed, our lips part only to lay down this beauty that is to be had.
i lay her down, and proceed to spread her legs. i have to open up her mind, in order to be let in. i sit up, rubbing up and down her naked thighs, and again our eyes meet. enticed with me she is; and she wants me now more than ever. i ask her if shes ready. she gives me a simple nod, fallowed by a beautiful lick of the lips. i move in for the kill, and invade her space again. kiss her so sweetly and softly, gently and slowly. i kiss down her cheek and make my way to her neck. bite, suck and kiss until i hear a sound. shes ready, but my plan has just begun. to the other side of her neck i move, crusading in the same manner, listening to her pleasure. i kiss back up her cheek and our lips meet again, now attached for the good; let the penetration begin.
i push in my love, slowly and gentle as i can. i don't want to hurt her, i hold her heart in my hands at this point. i push slow, and proceed to pump even slower. then the flow becomes recognizable and i am able to push deep. deep into her back, touching her mind, on a interconnected level connected by the heart and the spine. now she is mine. i give her all of me and she gave me her in return. after its over i lean back to the spot where i began. i look into eyes and love is all i see. she loves me for me, and now she knows all of me. as well now, i know her and our bond is deeper than a route the core. i can see she is happy that she gave me her gift, she knew i would love it, and it would bring us great peace.
sex; that began in the eyes. fallowed with a touch and then a kiss, and soon landed on the bed. love was exchanged and on an exhibition. after sex with her, i have truely found peace.
The sex, begins with the eyes. Her dark brows, curved in sweet perfection. though seemingly brown, when hit with the light her eyes prove to be the most beautiful green.
she looks at me, in her eyes i can see she isn't scared. shes ready for a man to be a man, to have his way with his lady. as i take a step closer, her eyes change to a wanting, screaming desire to be encompassed by my love, and no other love. another step, her eyes are glued to mine. to look away is fatal, the moment is on.
now for the first touch. i take my hands and grab her body just above her waist. love her curves with my hands and comfort her body. she touches my face, an occurrence i would usually immediately halt. but the touch was so gentle, so warm and smooth. i was infatuated with the feeling, i could never stop her. with that act, she gained the keys to the kingdom. she will forever be in my memory after this.
the kiss. i move in like a smooth cougar on his prey. slow creeping inside her space, to gain what i want. i move into her face, and pause. look at her eyes one more time, only to see them open. our lips meet, and both of our eyes remain open. in her eyes remained the want and the burning desire. after our lips met once, they met immediately again only to not part. we walked back a couple steps to the bed, our lips part only to lay down this beauty that is to be had.
i lay her down, and proceed to spread her legs. i have to open up her mind, in order to be let in. i sit up, rubbing up and down her naked thighs, and again our eyes meet. enticed with me she is; and she wants me now more than ever. i ask her if shes ready. she gives me a simple nod, fallowed by a beautiful lick of the lips. i move in for the kill, and invade her space again. kiss her so sweetly and softly, gently and slowly. i kiss down her cheek and make my way to her neck. bite, suck and kiss until i hear a sound. shes ready, but my plan has just begun. to the other side of her neck i move, crusading in the same manner, listening to her pleasure. i kiss back up her cheek and our lips meet again, now attached for the good; let the penetration begin.
i push in my love, slowly and gentle as i can. i don't want to hurt her, i hold her heart in my hands at this point. i push slow, and proceed to pump even slower. then the flow becomes recognizable and i am able to push deep. deep into her back, touching her mind, on a interconnected level connected by the heart and the spine. now she is mine. i give her all of me and she gave me her in return. after its over i lean back to the spot where i began. i look into eyes and love is all i see. she loves me for me, and now she knows all of me. as well now, i know her and our bond is deeper than a route the core. i can see she is happy that she gave me her gift, she knew i would love it, and it would bring us great peace.
sex; that began in the eyes. fallowed with a touch and then a kiss, and soon landed on the bed. love was exchanged and on an exhibition. after sex with her, i have truely found peace.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
see you in my dreams.
how did i end up right here with you
after all the things that ive been through
a broken heart has been broken
and ever since, the tree remains token
with all the smoke in the air i cant see the sun
but shes gone, no light in my life when its just begun.
how did we get here?where did we fall down?
would this ever have happened if we knew what we knew now?
but its to late, heart break. but no way were you a mistake
grow and love just to take but do it for your own sake
im to young for such heartache expressions
just a lonely stoner giving off wrong impressions
who new love was just skin deep
and will i ever find what was formerly called sleep?
eyes wide shut but my minds tied open
just to touch you once again, is all that im hopin.
but what we want most is what we can never achieve
an end to our connection i sought to never believe
until you faked left ant went right
so here alone, we spark up. smoke all night
see you in my dreams.
after all the things that ive been through
a broken heart has been broken
and ever since, the tree remains token
with all the smoke in the air i cant see the sun
but shes gone, no light in my life when its just begun.
how did we get here?where did we fall down?
would this ever have happened if we knew what we knew now?
but its to late, heart break. but no way were you a mistake
grow and love just to take but do it for your own sake
im to young for such heartache expressions
just a lonely stoner giving off wrong impressions
who new love was just skin deep
and will i ever find what was formerly called sleep?
eyes wide shut but my minds tied open
just to touch you once again, is all that im hopin.
but what we want most is what we can never achieve
an end to our connection i sought to never believe
until you faked left ant went right
so here alone, we spark up. smoke all night
see you in my dreams.
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